Blind Madness

Our surroundings, feelings, emotions and people affect our everyday life. We all have our good days and our bad days. When things do not go our way or according to plan, it sets off the balance of our normal sentiments. Jose, my older cousin, is fun to be with. He is usually in a good mood and has an awesome humor! Nothing really irritates or bothers Jose. If so, he usually shakes it off and goes back to being his crazy self. But one time Jose lost it! Jose had a bad day at school and at home. His partner in a project was a slacker and Jose had to do all the work. He left his term paper on top of his bed and it was due that day. He stayed up late the night before to write an essay he forgot to do. He was late for school and he forgot his gym clothes. Jose was just having a bad day. When I went to visit later in the afternoon, he was quiet and grumpy. I tried to talk to him, but he would only ignore me or answer rudely. I did not know what was going on but I knew something was up. I tried to joke around with him and messed with just we always do, but this time I hit a nerve and he exploded!!! Jose began to shout and turned red. Boy, was I suprised and even a bit shaken. He started telling me why the heck did I want and why was I there. His response stung me a bit. I told him I wanted to visit him and just hang out. He told me to leave that he had alot of work to do and that I was bothering him. I retorted telling him that he didn't have to be a jerk about it. We got in an arguement, we were going back and forth, and some mean things were said. I said goodbye to my aunt and stormed off. The next two days, Jose came to my house. He apologized for his attitude and the things he said, which he did not meant. I apologized too and then I asked him what was going on. He finally told me of the bad luck he was having that day and that he just cracked under stress. Jose said he was sorry and he did not mean to take it out on me. We forgave eachother and then we went with my other cousins and all of us went to the movies to go watch Paranormal Activity. After his release of stress, frustration and anger, Jose returned to his fun loving self. It seemed like frustation and desperation transformed Jose into a different person. I am glad that the old Jose is back, and I hope to never see the frustrated person take over Jose ever again!
Jose's outburst reminded me of Oedipus' loss of control when he is under pressure and desperation too. Like Oedipus, Jose said pretty mean things and lost his rational thinking. In his moment of anger and desperation for an answer, Oedipus takes out his desperation on Tiresisa and begins to insult him. Oedipus also falsely accuses Creon of conspiracy without any definite evidence to support his accusations. Oedipus loses himself in the confusion of rage and desperation and becomes into a whole different person. Our emotions tend to change our response to things or how we deal with dilemmas. When we are angry or lose focus of our rational thinking, we lose ourselves into the blindness of madness.